Please do not Judge Me for Living My Truth
It’s mine and I own it whatever it’s Proof
Please do not Fear for Me for my Soul is Safe
Should you see Darkness within Me
Fear not, for it is in the right Place
My Lessons are Many, my fears may be great
Yet it is Mine to Reveal, and Restore without Hate
If ever you view me standing at Hell’s Darkest Gate
Please let it be known, the Light in my Heart, Shall be my guide Home.
When I struggle with Darkness, Fear and ill Faith
Your Love, plain and simple, shall help me find Grace
So Pray, judge not my fears, with your Anger nor Pain
Instead speed me Light, with Joy, in great Haste!
I ask simply this please…
Do not Judge me for Living my Truth
I AM what I AM and with All of my Might
I AM Purely and Simply
A Being of Light.
~Janya
***A very dear friend of mine penned the above some time ago and I felt it was perfectly befitting my little tale today. Thank you Janya, for allowing me to share your words of wisdom!
The past few days I have been in the space of a deep clearing of wounds that I had no idea I was carrying until recently.
That is not unusual at all though, especially after you have been on the healing path for a good amount of time, for we clear the ‘knowns’ first, the wounds that are on the surface that can still be seen in some manner, and then we go deeper than.
Deeper Than…I first began to hear those words 2 years ago. Deeper Than.
And I replied, “Yeah, sure, why not? I’m game!”.
That must have been my overly enthusiastic Uranus at work there. ((sardonic smile))
Seriously though, I have no regrets, not in the long run.
I do have my hard days though, just like everyone else, and on those days I can tend to be quite sarcastic, it is my way of keeping myself moving forward and my head above water during the really tough stuff.
As I’ve said a million and one times, and others have too..a sense of humor is mandatory when on the path of Healing.
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Before I go into sharing my experiences and my forthcoming understandings of said experiences (that precipitated the title of this post), I’ll share the lowdown on my current astrological transits:
Transit Saturn (responsibility/the past) is on my 3rd/4th house cusp. (local community, brothers&sisters/inner self and more of the past). 🙂
Tr. Saturn is squaring Tr. Pluto whom is now within 3 degree’s of my descendant, so likely now affecting not only my 6th house (service to others, personal health) yet also my 7th house (committed relationships).
Squares are frictional and we all currently have the transit of Saturn sq. Pluto somewhere in our charts, I just happen to have mine as I detailed above.
I also have the coming Full-Moon Lunar Eclipse on New Years Eve conjunct my Ascendant (self)/ Descendant (other), squaring my natal Jupiter/Mercury (higher/expanded understanding) conjunction in Libra (relationships/balance/justice) and this all is forming a loose Grand Cross with my Chiron (healing/wounds) at the top of my chart(sharing my understanding of this wound to heal thyself) .
On the day that this area of self-clearing began for me, transiting Moon triggered the Saturn/Pluto square by forming an inconjunct and trine respectively, when the Moon aspected conjunct my natal Saturn in the 11th house (friendships/groups/hopes).
I’m not sure who I wrote that for, my readers or myself..likely more for myself. (I hope you benefit, but I am determined to do what I have to do here to heal thyself.) ((admitting with no shame))
Though it just made my tummy flip upside down again for the upteenth time this week.
So I am steeping in relationships right now, and issues of responsibility to others, and the need to regenerate in some manner, how I have perceived and/or done, all of this before.
Following is my tale, of uncovering wounds of perceived failure, and the messages I have received, concerning our responsibility to others. I confess the tale is somewhat long, for I could find no way to shorten it and still get my point across..so you may wish to take out the dog and get another cup of joe before you proceed..you brave, brave Soul. 🙂
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