Where are you finally saying Yes!, to saying NO!?~Virgo Full Moon 3.7.23 and Saturn Ingress Pisces

This prose snippet below (slightly tweaked) is from something I wrote in 2005, early into the “intentional” part of my Healing/Be-coming journey.

Following the prose is a brief delineation/thought prompt for the Virgo Full Moon 2023 as well as an observation for Saturn’s ingress of Pisces hours after the lunation.

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Saying YES! to Screaming NO!

Once, I felt Enough

Of the Pain

For a Moment

I Dreamed

Of No Tomorrows

And it was Then

that finally I said

YES!

To saying

NO!

~Sharon Brodbeck

aka Kachina Houska ‘2005

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The current Virgo Full Moon finds Nessus (the Buck Stops Here) conjunct Sun in Pisces with opposition to Moon upon the “Volcanic Eruption (Catharsis) Sabian degree. Mercury, lunation ruler, is also present in Pisces.

I invite you to consider the prose snippet above in regards to the relevancy of it in your life during this Full Moon phase. 

How are you doing, really? 

Do you need to VENT like that Volcano?

As Mountains crumble and Moons fall can You allow the Fires to Burn while permitting your Yesses as well as NO!’s to be your hymn and guide as You finish what You must in preparation for the magnificent Aries New Moon’s arrival in two short weeks(blinks?!)?

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For All Whom Loved in Dresden

I Claim this New Day,

for those Many upon Many

of which once it was denied.

Into the Rising Sun I shall move,

an acceptance of Grace

for us All.

No longer shall We hold to our sadness,

birthed of misbegotten belief

of Life brought short.

No Man’s Doings shall tether Us yet,

to The Great Waste and Chaos

once met upon Us by the actions

of the Innocent of Mind

sent forth by those Ignorant of Heart

to enact their ill biddings.

We shall defy their attempts to erase our Love

with that very Being Herself

resowing our Dresden Love

with reverence and Joy

in all of the multitudes of spaces and places

we now call Home.

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Dark of The Moon Approaching Pluto & Aquarius New Moon 1/20-21/2023

~Dark Moon Reflection and Release

How do I want to be known?

Have I aborted all soon-to-be Ghosts of the Age that Fades that I might be a purer Vessel for a Truer Creation than the one that has forced us to our knees, literally and metaphoric? 

I returned to The House That Built Me and I have PRAYed with Kesha as the sorrows, rage and unRealized expectations of my lineage tore through me as I opened the door for Healing for I, and the many I’s before me, who once participated in the wounding of others, as well as ourselves, before we did see and understand a Truer Light. 

A Grace of Forgiveness bestowed upon me for my own shortcomings now confessed, a Whisper in my Heart urged, Let it Flow, Let it Flow; Let the everlasting Well of No Wrongs only Rights find it’s way to those whom I, and my lineage of I’s, held in accountability for once thought Wrongs.  

New Ways, New Means, I peeked!; it’s going to be ok, new terminology arrives to understand our Selves, and Others, in not only a kinder way, but a Sex-ier way too! X-citing (though likely not what you are thinking dear!) just wait, you’ll SEE, it’s Novel and beckoned back to meet us, from a “Forward” facing time; almost here almost here, our awaited Renaissance=far less Fear. 

Felt the Fear and was Bold anyway; dropped the last vestiges of that which has concealed ME, from You, and Me too! 

Am Defiant in My Truth, when first Naked I held my breath, awaiting the critique of my True Form displayed before You, before He, before I. And then I realized, it mattered not, for I AM, I AM! well yes of course! and approval is already Mine, I just needed to step up, claim it and Call it DONE!  

I AM enough. I am no longer in Love with another; I AM LOVE with an Other and the Last is nothing like the First and is the every Thing we ever held close to our Hearts, so close, we had forgotten it was still held there. 

Celebrate! A New Moon approaches, and wow, get ready for the Bold One’s, the Creatives!. whom are standing proudly and assuredly in their Nakedness of Truth and have heard the Call, we Gather with haste, no waste!; busy Bee’s too Big for any catching Jars we Are, and we are Hive, One, but no way are we fucking the same.

 We are BOLD in Our Colors and Flavors and we care not for the Approval of those whom would Judge us for our Courage to Stand, as we ARE, Naked in Defiance and oh-so-over-ready to Light a Fire of radical new understandings and definitions as we Re-Imagine our Collective Worlds. 

I know how I want to be known and all soon-to-be Ghosts have been blessed and ushered into Light and I have claimed full ownership of my dark, empowered womb. I choose what I Birth and the one’s with withering Seeds attempting to inseminate any of their old hat song and dance within me, and YOU, will find Kali Maa awaiting and she does not take names my friend. 

Love, always Love, Love Soft, Love Hard~ Rage in Your Love; it is Uncontainable it is the True Power!,

and the one’s that mistake their aggressions for power, yeah, we’re done with that. 

I Am Ready.

You? 

Sharon Brodbeck 1/20/23

Into The Mystic

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I AM LOVE with an OTHER

I AM Love

with an Other

having previously risen

to invitation upon

a Path of destination

one not of easy traverse.

Yet arrived

I one morning did

to find at Love’s Door

an Other I

whom too once had

risen to like invitation.

Acceptance by He

of I,

and I of He

alit a ferocious Fire

that laid to waste

last vestige of resistance

to surrendered acceptance

of a bestowing of Grace.

This Love,

that I AM

with an Other

is not a passive Love

though She be gentle

nor is She a forcible Love

but an ever-long

Invitation.

She speaks of

no confinements

nor definitions

nor denials

a Sonnet of Inclusion

flows from her Lips

and through

mine Heart.

This Love,

She tutors

is the Love without beginning

and without demise

to be shared Freely

in all Expressions

with any whom

rise to Invitation,

Evermore.

Sharon Brodbeck 01/19/23

Into The Mystic

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Defiant in Our Naked Truth ~ Full Moon Cancer 01.06.2023

Are we yet impregnated,

by the soon-to-be Ghosts,

of a Fading Age?

Inseminated even now

with the unmet dreams

and impossible to bear expectations

of a minority frenzy

still unaccepting

of the Common need

to bring forth from our Womb

a power Truer

than the one of Era previous.

Can we rid ourselves

of the antiquated notions

that have fueled everlasting wars

as an endless attempt

by those fearful of the

Truer Power

to retain the last gasp

of a false hierarchy structure

whose withering seeds

prove inability to father

further violence and mayhem

through those whom have boldly

reclaimed their wombs.

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How Do You Want to Be Known? ~Capricorn Solstice & New Moon December 2022

I awoke recently in very early morn hours to the question arising within me of, “How do you want to be Known?”. I noted it within my bedside notebook and fell back to sleep.

Upon returning to sleep I was met by a lone, large Bee that was of a size similar to my hand. It’s body was vibrant in color and it radiated wellness. As I observed the Bee it settled upon a pristine white wooden planked floor.

I leaned over the Bee for a better look and noted a missing plank that allowed my view of a lone crab resting upon a dirt subfloor. The crab was alive and well but unmoving, as if unsure as to where to scuttle or awaiting direction possibly from the Bee.

I was calm and attentive to the Bee yet felt a need to contain it in some manner. I thought I might carry it outdoors to it’s natural habitat, for it’s own sake, as a measure to prevent it coming to harm by others whom might fear it.

I found myself to be holding a large glass jar and I attempted to “scoop” it around the Bee but try as I might the Bee repeatedly proved to be too large for the jar and would not be contained. I was puzzled by this as the Jar to Bee ratio made sense until I tried to actually capture it within the space.

Then I awoke, noted this message, and went about life; the question, “How do you want to be Known?” arisen previous the dream has remained prominent and echoes within me repeatedly since.

It is from this experience that I offer my thoughts upon this year’s Capricorn Solstice and the perfection of the Capricorn New Moon soon after.

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On Love and Denial (Venus Saturn Things)

Denial and rejections of Love are but feeble attempts of self flagellation. The Presence of Love can no more be denied to the Soul than breath be denied to the lungs for both are life sustaining and necessary conditions. As such, both breath and Love are provided freely unto us by God.  If we should find ourselves without adequate measures of either we should bring to question why we are not allowing ourselves to partake in their vital sustenance.

Maybe it is with Love that we wait for something tangible to be seen to prove its existence unto us? During most conditions Love, as true also with breath, goes unseen and unappreciated by the naked eye. Yet during some conditions, such as the colder environments of our lives, breath is easily viewable streaming ever so fluidly and gently across our lips as if they were caressed by it. So too, is it not with Love?

Love is the warmth that envelops us and permeates our very Soul when we have ceased  our furies and battles and been stilled to find ourselves having become a frigid brittle shell for the lack of It. Deny us Love does not, as oft we have with It, for Love is not vengeful nor does it seek to elude or delude Its True Nature.

Love knows the Truth of what it Is and always seeks union with, Its Self, that which is ever residing in stillness deep within our human forms.

10/20/2022 11:08 AM~ Morning thoughts stirred by doing life Things

S. Brodbeck

Into the Mystic

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MarsRx Gemini; Creeping up on the Full Moon

“Do you remember when I told you about the pipe bombs in my driveway or the time my neighbor called 911 because there was a horrific boom and it seemed the whole house shook and insects were scurrying from the drains and she was certain my propane tanks had exploded? Remember that?”

~oh yeah; I do

“Yes! So the fire department came when she called and then they roped off the block and there was this really weird gas hovering thick over the ground and spiraling all about my property. And the really weird thing was no one knew why and as far as I know, after men in uniforms and hazmat suits left, it was just forgotten. Never heard anymore. Just like after they came and detonated the bombs. That was just it”

~yeah. so why now? what’s this about?

“I think partly this is why I’m hurting so much now; physically. It’s all crunchy-like and stagnant, these things that I do not share, because it just seems like my life is full of these really weird little jagged, seemingly unrelated events and when you just share those “random” pieces with people that have no patience or aptitude  for the unfolding of something larger, you just don’t come off well”

~seriously?? you still give a shit what people think?

“Yes and no. I no longer require approval for who I am or how I am doing my Am-ness. But yeah, I give a shit in as much as I don’t enjoy being the target for people’s nasty when they can’t get a grip on it.”

~nobody does. but you gotta’ just forget about that and do what you’ve gotta do.

“Yeah, you’re right. I’ve spent too much time not being dishonest but also not being fully forthcoming when opportunity presents. Last time I went full-in was back in 2007, remember? I told you how badly that went.”

~yeah. that wasn’t your fault though.

“It felt like my fault. I thought they were more openminded then they actually were. I heard through the rumor-mill that I couldn’t be trusted because I didn’t share enough about myself. So, I tried but it just freaked them out. The Christians tried to cast the devil out of me and the Pagans just thought my glowing healing hands were..I don’t know actually, but they turned on me” 

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The Leaving; is the Coming

When I awaken and go

I shall carry you with me

much as once you carried me forth

to Here

as I remained within my slumbers.

When I awaken and go

I shall seal

our Fare-Thee-Wells

upon this Haven

once permissive

of our unified

Rests and Risings

however fleeting

I recall them to be.

When I awaken and go

I shall carry you with me

course set in tandem

with ascendant Sun

wasting naught of my Freedom gained

a much desired treasure

worthy of savor.

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The Choice~ Lunar Eclipse Taurus Nov. 8, 2022

I have risen late.

I place intention to the course of my walk, traversing avenues when necessitated, ensurance of continual communion with crisp autumnal Light.

The eschewing of spaces yet grayed by lingering shadows, merely an action obedient to preference of mood this morn, not a path dictated by a misbegotten fear of subliminal places.

Recent formations of leaf communities joyously solicit invitation of sojourn aside their now grand cohesions of once-solitary, myriad hued members.

Occasional stirrings of wind no longer threaten individual dispersion; a boon of communal existence and necessity for many when Winters Gales arrive.

Yet on this late morning outing I find it is not these vibrant communities that dialogue so intimately with my Heart but it is the occasional Lone Leaf, found pressed limply to concrete walkway by residual moisture of the weeping of the Night prior, that receives my more soulful considerations.

I adjust my gait accordingly on the walkway, with respect for their current condition, maneuvering gently around these random soloists whilst musing as to why they present as such even now with other choice of Be-ing promised nearby should they but accept transport upon prevailing winds.

I observe that indeed the New Day sun has liberated much Else of the previous Nights tears yet these Lone Leaf’s remain saturated and still, and I remain uncertain as to if it is by inability, or unwillingness, to change their solemn condition that they remain as such.

Whispering to them with my Heart I ask of them if they be yet-stilled by indecisions, or are they not yet ready to be liberated of the tears of former Night doings; is it these matters that are cause of current condition?  

Alas, my inquiry results in mere silence, so I Heart Whisper once again a reassurance meant to be a balm against lonesomeness and further despair that:

I, as well as others upon our shared pathway, shall endeavor in our comings and goings to keep the pathway clear during all Winter Gales.

Through our Movements we shall stir the Airs when needed to assist in the drying of tears while alighting favorable Winds to lift all Lone Leaf’s toward their personal Choice of New Be-ing while honoring their sovereign rights to choose environments, solitary or communal, that is perfectly right for them.

I aim my strides now towards home; satisfied with my own choice.

© S. Brodbeck 11.08.22

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