Posts Tagged ‘venus-square-saturn’

My 12th house Moon at 29° Gemini conjunct my Cancer ascendant has always been a challenge for me. Not a fluffy moon, it receives squares from my angular South Node, Pluto, Uranus, Jupiter and Mercury at the bottom of my chart and at the top has squares to my North Node and Chiron. Throw in an opposition to Mars and voila!, challenged Moon. {{smiles and reminds self to love my moon anyway}}

Transiting Pluto spent many years opposing my Moon and during that time the dissolution of female relationships was absolute, in regards to friends and family, less my daughters. My relationship with my daughters strengthened and evolved into a deep friendship and something far more beautiful and fulfilling than I could have imagined I would have with them at their current ages of 22 and 18. Friendship, true and real friendship is what we have now and that means everything to me for if there is no friendship in any form of a relationship than there is no relationship, period. I honestly believe that. I do not feel that blood relationships hold us together, at least it has not been true for me, friendship does. Yet, the relationship with my daughters while transformed was done so under duress.

In 2005 I had my Jupiter return, transiting Pluto conjuncted my natal Mars triggering my natal Mars-Pluto square and Saturn finished his transit through my 1st house and ended with a conjunction to my Leo Venus triggering my natal Venus-Saturn square. Divorce, followed by a financial collapse, was the result for me. By the end of 2006, my material net worth was packable, literally luggage tote-able{{laughs}}, attire and a few keepsakes plus my faithful little dog. That’s it. Everything else was gone. Home, auto’s, furnishings, bank accounts…gone in the blink of an eye it seemed. I have come to accept that this was the result of my dragging my tail on bringing to closure many situations when I should have instead of attempting to be the “good girl” and my previously warped perception of whom I thought I needed to be to be ‘spiritual’ undoubtedly contributed to my sluggishness in making willing changes too.

Sometimes I start to fall back on the old crutch of,  “Hey, I was presented with a whole plate of Shit when I entered this life” and then I check it quickly, for it is no excuse for my not attending to what was in my power to attend to and crutches like that one just catapult you right back into victim-hood. That is never a productive place to be and I very sincerely believe that these times are we are in will no longer allow for that state of consciousness. We now must take full accountability for our actions and non-actions, that is the only way through this pass, the best that I can see. No more pointing fingers and hiding behind shadows, at least not for me it would seem, for those shadows have been outed for me non-stop and I have to own them, there just is no other option even though I cannot logically explain why that is to someone that doesn’t already get it, you know?



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Red asks on: Venus Square Saturn in the Natal Chart: Activated by Transit

“You speak about the importance of believing in ourselves and our dreams. I still don’t know where to start/go, but would you mind telling me how you overcome this self-love issue yourself? How did you start to love yourself? Would you mind posting about it or it’s not astrology topic?”

Red, I’m going to give this a shot, to try to communicate all of that in a response that will hopefully make some sense. 🙂

Beginning to love and value myself, was a long journey, because honestly, it was not until my late twenties that I even realized this was an issue for me.

You see, my understanding before then, of what self-love is, was warped.

I shall try to explain that.

I thought self-love was an external condition, something that was on the outside, worn like a coat.

Yet once you took that coat off, the undergarments were those of insecurity, self-disappointment and shame.

This boggled me for a very long time.



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Personal Note: I felt a need to take a closer look at Natal Venus square Saturn recently, as my Natal square is now highly activated, and will remain so for many months, due to Mars transiting Leo.

Maybe this will be of value to others whom also have this aspect.

Venus square Saturn in the Natal Chart is a challenging aspect to carry.

Yet our ‘hard’ aspects are where we receive our lessons, our opportunities, to learn a new way of action and being.

I have heard this aspect, Venus square Saturn, referred to as the “When will I ever be Loved?” aspect.

I have referred to it in my life as, “When will I ever FEEL loved”.

I  view this aspect, for myself, as having strong connections to the Martyr archetype, and feel it is a call to Self-Love.

Also, I see Venus sq. Saturn, as one of a few aspects, that can give you the ‘damned if I do, damned if I don’t’ attitude.

For myself, this aspect has symbolized a need for receiving unconditional love, or feeling that one is unconditionally loved.

I believe this can only be achieved through truly holding unconditional love for one’s self first, by recognizing one’s own divinity(god spark).

The catalyst for this to take place within one’s self, is a feeling within yourself, that no matter what you do, or do not do, it is never enough for others for them to extend “approval”, hence signifying the gifting of unconditional love by another.

Until this aspect is harmonized within, it is common to seek approval/love from others in manners that deprive one’s self of free expression of your true nature.

Many with this aspect are quite capable of giving unconditional love to others and to put others first, yet cannot be receiving, for they have yet to “Love thyself”, and give self-recognition to their status as an equal within the Whole of Creation.

Definition of a SQUARE: A square is when two planets are located 90° apart in the Zodiac, and the general orb allowed is within 6+/- degrees, unless the Sun and/or Moon is one of the planets forming the square, then generally an orb of 10° is allotted.

Squares are conflict. Where you have a square, you have the representation of two planets who’s individual needs clash within a person. The challenge is to harmonize the two planets(energies) within oneself.

By harmonizing the function of both planets forming the square within oneself, the energy of the square is released, then allowing for one’s external life/world to reflect the inner harmony.


I have explained the basics of this aspect. I’ll now share my personal relationship with Venus square Saturn.


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One can only Be the Recipient of Love Gifted by Another, when One has Learned to Be Receiving of Love, as the Gift it Is. ~kachina

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